Friday, June 23, 2006

7:55 and 4

she called at 7:55am and she passed at 4. it was Roz who called and Lillian passed from this life at 4 yesterday, Lillian is her mother.

through her tears she could barely get out the words
so i had to help
after a long battle with cancer her mother could no longer
fight the fight
she will join her husband
who had taken this journey 33 years before her

i remember how
when her mother would leave the house
Roz would stand outside and wave
Lillian would turn the corner
and she would still wave
because she knew
something i didn't know yet
Lillian would back up
in just a moment
and check
that her daughter was still there
waving...

Roz would later tell me things weren't
always perfect with their relationship

Roz was always there for Lil
it was a broken voice of a child
that called me this morning
"i miss her so much" she was sobbing
the only thing i could say was
she is no longer in pain
hold on to Natalie and David
and the easiest
i love you so very much
i'll be there on tuesday

a preplaned flight to help with
the sale of my mothers house
was it by chance
i don't think so
i wanted to be there for Roz
when this happened
didn't know that i could
because of all that is happening with
my mother, being her caretaker
now i know why i choose
tuesday
to be with Roz
my best friend
now
we will both wave
we will both check to see
if the other one is still
waving
and

we will

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